EXIT STAGE DOWN

pain and suffering are conditions that i cannot abide. i am not good bearing these conditions. while in the hospital and suffering which i am not good at. i asked the doctor to just kill me. he said, it wasn't on his list of treatment options. i was thinking about a painless and quick exit from this life and i came up with nothing. the robin williams choice seemed too severe even for my unhappy state.

during my second hospital admission after the transplant i was feeling so miserable i thought that was the best time to exit. i was feeling so bad i wouldn't have noticed that all organs had ceased to function.

i am not looking forward to a replay of this type event or worse before the end.

bye. aaarrrgghhhhhh...............

wait! i'm hungry. pass the pizza and beer.

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