being a born and bred NEW YORKER thrown into the wastelands of northern new jersey, i continually have dreams of being in NEW YORK CITY. but i have on many occasions gotten lost in the borough of queens on the transit system.
last night i was returning to class at my school in queens from midtown manhattan; was going to ask directions from the token booth guy when i realized that i didn't know the location of the school. i excused myself to look at the subway map. arriving at the map i realized that i didn't know what i was looking for.
there have been many dreams of this type. sometimes i take the wrong subway train and find myself on one of the queens lines trying to get back to the bronx train line. other times i will ride to the end of the line and then try to get a bus to the bronx going across one of the bridges to the bronx.
the queens of my dreams is rural like you see on commuter lines (like ---- ummm ... new jersey transit). my conscious self has been on queens lines; like out to shea stadium, and other places. my sub conscious does not seem to be aware of the the passage of time. all of its time is flat. all things are capable of happening at the same time. that is things that happened in the 1930s and things that happened in 2012 are in the same time picture.
when i die my final word will be, "BRONX", like in , "citizen kane", when he said, "rosebud". i am lost outside the bronx.
nevermind.
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